Lost

Lately I have been on a path that is causing me to become lost. I have found myself with that empty feeling deep inside and no matter the decisions I make someone is going to end up hurting. Which I feel makes me the bad guy in all of this. 

Never mind all the things that have played into this feeling of my emotions to finally take over. I feel I have completely lost mind my damn mind. I hear what the others say about "crying for no reason" and the range of emotions they go through. What makes them think I don't have those as well?  I'm just as tore up as they are and probably even more. 

I wish I could get away with blaming it all on this shitty weather we are getting but there isn't anyone that would buy that nor would I.  

I always thought the older and wiser I became that things would get easier and more relaxed. I can honestly say that's not the case. I sleep less, worry more, stress more and at times care less. It's a shame. Maybe becoming a recluse is the only option I have to get my mind back on track.  I'm just not sure right now. 

Been Too Long

It has been over 2 years since a post for me and I am clueless as to why. I love to write things down and put a twist on them, give my perception on a topic, rant & rave but yet I have no idea why I chose to abandon writing anything down. Maybe it is because I became lazy? I'm not sure but am promising myself now that I am going to blog about something at least once a week from here on out. This is a commitment I have made to myself and my oh so many followers. LOL!! I have no clue what I am going to write about but at the same time I have hundreds of thoughts running through my head that I would love to give a take on. So, shortly I will take the time to find myself a topic and run with it on the blog and see if anyone reads it. Until then. BD

JP

The bomb has dropped on Penn State University and it is still exploding with anger, disgust, pain, sorrow and so much more.

I am a Nebraska fan by birth, choice and life. But I am also a fan of sports period, except the NBA (please keep the lockout going). I love the Big Red but I also know when my team is beat by someone I don't hold my head down and make up excuses on why we were beat. I take it as the team with the better plan and execution won that day and I applaud them for it. When you think of coaches and their programs I have followed and cheered for. Don Shula of the Baltimore Colts and Miami Dolphins, Eddie Robinson of Grambling, Barry Switzer of Oklahoma, Paul "Bear" Bryant of Alabama, Tom Osborne of Nebraska, Bobby Bowden of Florida State, I could keep going and going. Also Joe Paterno of Penn State.

Around 9:20 last night I learned of the firing of JP through a tweet from CNN News. The items reported leading up to his dismissal last night were hard to listen to. You just didn't want to believe it happens. Needless to say the sports talk and television tonight have been mostly all about what has transpired at PSU. I am becoming tired of hearing about it for one reason. Yes, Joe Pa was and will always be an iconic coach. A man on TV right now is calling him "a great and caring man". What kind of "great and caring man" keeps on going the way he did? A student that was involved in the "rioting" last night said it wasn't fair at all to Joe Paterno. I beg to differ. It is very fair and needed to happen. Yes it is sad he has to go out with this tarnished image but the man knew of sexual assault on minor children was going on and he lived with it. I know he reported to his chain of command but doesn't common sense take over and tell you to take it another step further? Police report or something to that nature.

I will say it again, I know JP is an icon in the coaching profession. His record spells that out clearly. But the man knew of something very wrong going on and I don't think he did all he could, should or needed to do when he was made aware of it. Therefore, I won't remember what he did and his teams did on the field. I will remember what he didn't do and say when he should have.

I feel terrible for the ones that went through the sexual advances from Sandusky. I would like to see some attention paid to these people. They have lived with this for the past several years and I feel that all the publicity put towards JP is a slap in their face. I hope they get what they deserve as I hope those that did the wrong and knew about the wrong, get what they deserve.

Penn State.....I hope Nebraska kicks the livin' shit out of you this weekend. GBR!!!