The Central Plains

Well, I haven't been on in a while with all the frantic pace that the holiday's bring us so here are some updates.

I was all set to drive back to Nebraska and see family for Christmas. I was going to leave early in the morning on the 19th of December and going to return on the 26th after having time with family and friends. I was going to work on the 18th in N.C. but due to snow storms and bad roads in that area I ended up leaving that morning around 8:00 A.M. and made my 992 mile drive towards the capitol city of NE.

Things went pretty smooth on the drive. I stopped twice for gas, bathroom breaks and something to eat and drink. I arrived in Lincoln at 9:00 P.M. and looked up some friends. Needless to say they were way ahead of me by that point. I couldn't walk from driving so much and they couldn't walk, talk or see much when I got there and it wasn't because of driving all day. The Christmas cheer was flowing. I am sure they still had a good blood level in their alcohol content but when all was said and done I think the alcohol content was the winner.

Saturday my son and I went and saw the movie Blind Side. Very good movie. We both really enjoyed it. That evening we spent with my daughter and her husband and watched the movie The Hangover. Now that is a crazy bachelor party. Kind of reminds me of my New Years Eve. A blank!!!

Sunday evening I took Jake, my son, back to his mom's and went and hung out at my daughters. Unfortunately due to bad weather and roads in that area, along with some school commitments that would be the last time I would see him for the Holiday's.

Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday I spent mostly with my daughter. I actually did go out and fix some friends bumpers and did a little Christmas shopping. By Wednesday evening we were getting the reports of a real bad snow and ice storm heading into the area. My thoughts were to not get caught up in it. I haven't been in a bad snow storm in a few years but remember if it's as bad as they were making it I might be there another week.

Now Tuesday night I did make into town to have some cocktails with my friends Steve and Danny. Needless to say we became somewhat intoxicated. Enough to where I had to sleep on Danny's couch while he snored the night away in his chair. Finally after many tries I got his butt up and into his bed so he could snore in there and I could get a little bit of sleep. What I didn't realize was that morning when I told him I was going to leave that he would come flying out of his room in his rather loose fitting boxer shorts, fling open the curtains to the patio door and stand there scratching himself while 20 feet away the utility crews were working. A sight that may haunt me for the rest of my life. The nightmares have yet to stop. Trust me you would have to of seen it to understand.

Thursday morning, Christmas Eve Day, was upon us and the talk of by 5:00 P.M. the wind and snow would be there and not stop until Saturday, the day after Christmas. I had been in contact with my dad some three hours away and he said that he already had 7 inches of snow and 50 mph winds. Well right then I know there wasn't going to be that trip to my parents house today. Wind and snow are not a good mix. Looking outside you could see the wind was really whipping up a fury on the plains and the little amount of snow that was falling was making it difficult to see anything.

By 11:00 A.M. in the morning I made the decision that I needed to leave quickly. I ran my daughter into her aunts house in Lincoln, 20 mile drive, which took 45 minutes. Stopped by a friends work and picked up a new computer and hit the road at 12:01 P.M. I was heading back to Tennessee.

The first 3.5 to 4 hours of the trip were nothing but a slow, slippery mess of driving. Many vehicles were rolled over in the ditches, traffic was moving slower and slower as the storm crept in. By the time I was East of Kansas City on heading for St. Louis the temperature had finally got about freezing and now it was just rain. It was actually Thunderstorms. So from Lincoln to East of Kansas City it was freezing and snowing and the rest of the way until I reached Knoxville, TN I drove in thunderstorms. I finally arrived back at my house at 3:30 A.M. Christmas morning.

This is one time I am glad I drove back. It is the 3rd time I have done it but by 5:00 in the evening Christmas Eve I was getting text messages from friends and family that I did the right thing. Airports were closed, roads were closed. It would have been at least until Monday before I could have probably left.

Now New Years Eve in Tennessee with friends. I just have on thought. If you suck at playing quarters, which I apparently do. Don't play the game with blackberry moonshine that is probably 140 proof. The night becomes foggy very quickly!

Decisions

Too many to make and not enough time to make them. I am not usually at a loss for words. You can ask anyone that knows me and I have a come-back or a comment on anything that can be delivered my way. For the most part, that is the nut ball inside of me. But when you have to make that decision that is as far on the serious side as it can get, I can clamp down and figure it out. No smart assed replies or comments. Just a sincere way of handling it.

I am heading back to Nebraska on Saturday and am wondering how to handle one of the biggest decisions of my life. It's not for me.......but for someone that is very dear to my heart. I want to do the right thing as well as say the right things but have found I am very fearful of approaching the topic. Can't really let out what it is but it does involve a family member and some wishes they have.

Things like this usually come to me pretty quick and I have the "plan of attack" all mapped out but this one time I am no farther ahead now than I was Saturday when I found out. It has me a bit troubled. I have prayed for guidance figuring I would have a direction by now but it's not here yet. Maybe that 13 hour drive back on Saturday will lead me the right way. I'm not real sure.

I want the best for ALL involved. I am just clueless as to how to show that. The people I need to talk with don't care about my words or the others feelings, only what they can gain from the circumstance. It almost seems like a lose - lose situation. I wish I could tell more but I can't. Just needed to use this to rant a little.

Thanks for reading.

Same time evey year

Why does December bring this on? Every year it's the same ole song and dance. December hits and I couldn't give a crap about anything; but I want to. Everything that goes on around me gives me an ill feeling. I look way to deep into things that are said, actions that are taken and I doubt too much.

When I do have that good vibe going and I try and spread cheer I feel that nobody cares. Are they going through the same things I am? Everything seems so..........artificial, non-sincere.

I try and try. I want this to be a good time like the other 11 months seem to be for me. Maybe this year it is because a lot is weighing on my mind. I'm not real sure.