Why does December bring this on? Every year it's the same ole song and dance. December hits and I couldn't give a crap about anything; but I want to. Everything that goes on around me gives me an ill feeling. I look way to deep into things that are said, actions that are taken and I doubt too much.
When I do have that good vibe going and I try and spread cheer I feel that nobody cares. Are they going through the same things I am? Everything seems so..........artificial, non-sincere.
I try and try. I want this to be a good time like the other 11 months seem to be for me. Maybe this year it is because a lot is weighing on my mind. I'm not real sure.
She Was six Years Old
8 years ago
